Joaquin

Added on by Rivers.

I watched "Her" today and it was one of the best movies I've seen in a long time. It's so enchanting and sad and overwhelming and exciting and personal but distancing... It's everything. If you haven't seen it (as Mark E. Miller would say) "treat yo'self" and see it. (I'm extremely picky with films and what I think constitutes a good one so you can trust me when I say it's good).

One of my favourite quotes was "The past is just a story we tell ourselves", which reminded me of one I read a few days ago: 

    "Memory is treacherous: you can't depend on it. It is basically always recreated to reinforce your anxiety or to make you feel better, but whatever actually did happen is totally susceptible to subjective interpretation. I absolutely don't trust my memory."

That's one of the most honest and brutal things I've ever read because I realise how true that is. We usually tell stories based on how good we're going to look in our version of events or how our feelings revised what actually happened. If you're upset at someone, how angry you are (I think) affects how you remember what they did... their actions are going to seem/be more vicious or hurtful than they might have actually been. Or if you fucked up but don't want to admit it, you'll rationalize/justify your actions so that when you're telling someone what happened you don't seem that bad and I get it. I don't think we can be immune to it because it's such a fast and (almost) automatic thing for us.

I'm sort fine with this because, to a certain extent, we need a little bit of safety and protection in our lives, even if it comes from little lies or self-deception. I don't think we can deal with the cold, bare truth all the time. I'm not advocating for complete and constant lies but I can understand someone sharing their story based on their feelings of it. 

So, then, nothing is really as it seems. 

My other favourite one:

"We are only here briefly and in this moment, I want to allow myself joy"

See you tomorrow :)