Added on by Rivers.

I tried to do the 30 day blog thing but I failed :( (where's an emoji when you need one). It needs more effort and dedication... and discipline than I have (or than I'm able to give...? ugh). Once/twice a week blogs though... I can do that.

I've been having this monologue (like a crazy person) about how people share their passions so freely. Like, how do you get to that point of "This is the thing that I'm desperately passionate about, it's a big dream, it's statistically almost unattainable, I'm self-conscious about it but here it is, here I am believing in myself, I probably might look dumb going for it but here I'm doing it. Here is the most vulnerable part of me... inspect it, judge it, love it, hate it, throw it away or tell your friends."

I find it so brutal but other people make it seem so effortless. I guess it's a state of mind, what's the worst that could happen, right? What's the absolute worst that could happen from people knowing and seeing you believe in and work towards something... big?

It takes practice. It takes courage. It takes time. It takes a lot of Kanye West-ness. Like that time he said... 

"I don't give a fuck about looking stupid. All I care about are my dreams and making them reality"